Star*Burst Re^volution

GCSE 'O' Level Examinations 2009

2010-01-26T11:06:00.000-08:00

GCSE 'O' Level Examinations 2009 Official results release: 11th January 2010(Monday)

Well, with an opening paragraph, I would like to express my thoughts... ...
I am disappointed with my results people! After I had retained for another year in Secondary 3 Express... ...

Next would be writing down on my secondary school journey... ...

Tanglin Secondary School
Entered this school in the year 2005... ...
I was enrolled in Secondary 1 Express class 4 with an PSLE aggregate of 201 in the year 2004.
Then, I joined The Boys' Brigade, 26th Singapore Company in January 2005 with Scouts experience in Princess Elizabeth Primary School for 2 years. I was a recruit and in April. I was promoted to Private at Queenstown Lutheran Church on our annual enrolment service cum promotion parade.

In the year 2006, I passed my Secondary 1 and was promoted to Secondary 2 Express class 4. Together with the same classmates I had in Secondary 1. I joined Tanglin Guzheng Ensemble in July 2006. Being the only boy, well, I didn't mind at all... ... Hahahahas!!! I was also participating the TSS Philharmonic Chamber Choir led by Miss Teo and Miss Chu. It was a hectic year then... ... Monday and Wednesday was Guzheng practice, Tuesday and Thursday was choir finally The Boys' Brigade every Friday and sometimes on Saturday. I managed to pass with mostly 'C' grades among my subjects and I was promoted to Secondary 3 Express class 4.

In the year 2007, I had my GCSE 'O' Level subject combination.
-English Language
-Chinese Language
-Combined Humanities (Social Studies/Geography)
-Elementary Mathematics
-Additional Mathematics
-Literature
-Combined Sciences(Physics/Chemistry)
-Food and Nutrition
-'O' level Music
I had participated in Singapore Youth Festival 2007 Central Judging - Guzheng Ensemble and attained Gold award with 16 other Guzheng members. Joined in Tanglin's 2nd Musical Production team in January 2007, A Chorus Line.
In summary, I failed almost every subjects except Chinese Language... ... ... ... Hehes:P:P:P:P:P
But I had to go through a retest for FOUR subjects and I purposelt failed it?
Then, I retained, willingly and prepared. I was allocated to Secondary 3 Express class 4... ...
It was a totally new classmates and teachers teaching:)
Wonderful class compared to the previous Secondary 3 Express class 4.
I am sorry to 3E4 '07 but it was true:P

In the year 2008, I took up a new GCSE 'O' Level subjects combination.
-English Language
-Chinese Language
-Combined Humanties(Social Studies/Literature)
-Elementary Mathematics
-Combined Sciences(Physics/Chemistry)
-Biology(SPA)
-Design and Technology

On 5th February 2008, Tanglin's second musical production, A Chorus Line, was up at National University of Singapore, University Cultural Centre.
Nothing much happened this year except for a personal breakthrough.
I managed to score 4 distinctions in the first term which I had never scored more than ONE distinction in my previous examinations... ...And I Topped my class in Term 1 Biology(SPA) and Final Year Examination Biology(SPA). As well as Topped my class in terms of overall percentage... ... To be true... ... My overall percentage was only 56.6%:P:P:P:P:P
Received the Edusave Bursary award.

In the year 2009, once again, I had participated in the Biannual Singapore Youth Festival Central Judging - Guzheng Ensemble 2009. This time, we had achieved Gold(WITH HONOURS) for out performance in the competition!!! After so many intensive practices and hectic preparations!!! !!! !!! Finally, it was my turn to take GCSE 'O' level examinations Oct/Nov... ... Intensive revision... ... Lots of notes... ... Burning midnight oil but not last minute work!!! It's OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Phew... ... An extra year of study had not gone to waste... ... The lessons learnt and courage to stand up to study again:)

In the year 2010, 11th January 2010(Monday), 2pm.
GCSE 'O' level results released... ... It was sad because I did not score 5 distinctions... ...
Sadness crawled over me... ...

To Be Continued... ... ... ... Dots Dots Dots

Jerry - January

2010-01-26T10:31:00.000-08:00

Well, I am not sure whether anyone would visit my blog anymore?
Hahas, it doesn't matter anyways... ...
It was my problem because I did not update my blog regularly!
Had a good start this year with a successful class chalet!

However, I would like to give a million thanks to:

Miss Raynee Wong,
-Mr Jeremy Ang as well as his gang,
-Mr Bernard Cheo(for his DSLR),
-4E4 members who had attended the chalet
-Mr Shawn Lim(for his presence)
and
-Miss Sherlyn Lim(for her Mahjong table)

Last but not the least will be behind-scenes people:
-Mr Roy(for the chalet booking)
-Mr Wong(for checking-in)
-Mrs Ang(for the BarBeQue food)

The chalet was at Changi Coast Walk, National Service Resort and Country Club, SAFRA.
It was from 4th January 2010 to 7th January 2010.
On the first day, we started with Mcdonald's delivery in the afternoon!!
Hahas, had quite a drama over McWings, but it's alright... No one's fault okay:)
Another drama was demanding for a bag of sauces such as Garlic Chilli, BBQ, Sweet and Sour... Blah Blah Blah... ...(I don't know Mcdonald's sauces well enough to name them all... ... :P)

Then, it was followed on with mahjong session and television. The chalet was equipped with a 20+++ inch LCD television and a very effective air-conditioner... ... It is difficult to explain but it can be such a nuisance in the middle of the night!!! To be frank, the first day was 'irritatingly' boring because no one, not even me, had planned any event/programme/games/entertainment for the chalet... So it was all just about free and easy:D:D:D

Second day was another full free time day, everyone using all their brain juice and experiencing boredom trying to search for events to kill time... They went for Pool, Bowling, Lunch and Chit Chat and even day dreaming. I am sorry guys and gals:P I am bad at planning for games and so on and so forth:P Follow on, at night, we had our 2nd BarBeQue within a month! Laugh Out Loud though... ... Mmm... mmm...mmm... As usual, thanks a BILLION to Jeremy!!! The food was Fantastic! Firstly, the extremely tasty marinated buffalo wings as know as chicken wing but it is only the mid portion. Juicy, yummy, fantastica, wonderful, heavenly, homely, salivary and nice BUFFALO WINGS! Moreover, it was the Chilli Stringray!!! Great job!!! That one would be... ... good until no words to describe:) Everybody simply LOVED IT! After BarBeQue was 2 tables of Mahjong!!! Heh heh... ...

Third day... ... A day filled with - think of your own activities day - LOLs!!! !!! !!!
Mahjong sets, television, laptop with internet access, Youtubing + Facebooking, laughing at some blog posts:P, Kumar the Drag Queen!!! And lastly, it was the first ever class night walk!!! Well, I guess it is also the last:(:(:(:(:( Tiring but enjoyable experience strolling together along the park in the middle of the night. We walked and chatted about past experiences and even gossiped:X:X:X:X:X Our legs were very tired as lactic acids were produced in our cells and muscles were strained... ...

Fourth day morning, PRAWN-ing at East Coast Park!!! Thanks a million to Jeremy's idea!
Hahas! New experince at Prawn-ing farm at East Coast Park. There were prwans, crab, lobster waiting to be fish up by our dear classmates! Hahas! We had Shawn Lim who was the Crab catcher:P Ken the Prawn catcher as well as prawns which were caught just by luring it into the net - provided initially to contain the caught sea creatures:P We started the fire for another round of BarBeque. Well, the moment of killing an aLIVE creature was extremely CRUEL! I was one of the people which did that... ... Staring at the crabs/lobsters/prawns struggling in the burning hot flames... ... And watching it slowing dying... ... It was mentally excruciating... ... Follow on, in the midst of BarBeQue-ing... ... Heavily morning shower!!! !!! Drenched!!!!! !!!!!
Called for cabs and ran from Prawn farm to Taxi stand which was approximately 20 metres away. Cold indoor condition in the cab... ... Rushing back to prepare for checking out in a few hours time!!! And shivering in the taxi feeling exhausted and sleepy... ... Deprive of sleep... ...

I had successfully, improperly, incompletely summarised my experience in Secondary 4 Express class 4 graduates chalet 2010 :):):)

Take Care,
Jerry Tan

I never knew what I wanted...

2010-01-07T13:28:00.001-08:00

I am having a lost sense of direction and drive now a days... ...

I had spent time thinking and realising that I had never knew what I wanted... ...

So... ... I am currently, lost in reality...

Holiday trip

2009-12-09T05:08:00.000-08:00

I am going to Hong Kong this coming Sunday :):):)
First time there!

13th December 6:50am

till

17th December 11:45pm

Hehes:)

And another trip is Batam

19th December to 22nd December:):)

Those were the days... ...

2009-12-08T07:22:00.000-08:00

Those were the days... ...

When I had a smooth face.
Which I never hesitate to cam whore with... ...

Those were the days... ...

I enjoyed participating in various activities... ...
And love the experiences

2009-09-24T21:13:00.000-07:00

Well, this is my nephew.
He had celebrated his 1st birthday this June.
And his favourite word is 'Ah Yi' which means aunt in chinese.
Sure he knows how to get his love from.
All his aunt and grandaunt pampers him a lot.
Hahas.
A cheerful and playful boy he is.

2009-09-09T01:42:00.000-07:00

I'M SO PISSED OFF... ...

2009-09-07T00:27:00.000-07:00

I had asked myself this question umpteen times.
"Did I lost control of my thoughts and emotions?"
The answer is "I think I did :)."

2009-08-29T10:57:00.000-07:00

I am recuperating from failure both mentally and physically.
What had been wasted and drained away, I will recover them.
Time is precise and merciless.
It snatches our youth and sent us to realise reality.

I am going to excel.
I am determined to succeed.
Although time might be insufficient but I am going to move on.
Currently, preparing for GCSE 'O' level exmaination is imperative.
As students, we are obligated to aspire to pass it.
This is reality and it is cruel.

I might had been deprived of something before, but I have to forget it.
Let bygones be bygones

2009-08-28T11:32:00.000-07:00

Footprint ain't the only thing that can represent memories.

The past is bygone and it shall be bygone.
I was what I am but not what I was.
I am not what I was but what I am.

If I chose to be what I was which means that I would not be what I am.
This could be understood easily.
Just reminiscing about the lively memories.

Please God, send an angel of wisdom upon me.
It shall guide me and never forsake me.

If we were fated to meet again in future, we will meet.
Friends are important in life.
But fate decides whether they are become our acquaintance or buddy.

CCA Certificate

2009-08-26T01:07:00.000-07:00

I couldn't believe my eyes as I stared at my results.
It a C5 after 5 years of time and energy harvested on Co-Curricular Activities(CCA).
This is ironic, I felt so ashamed of myself as a member who is extremely enthusiastic in CCA.
Currently, I am devastated because of this incident.

However, as I ruminate about the cause, I realised the reason behind it.
I was a CCA hopper. In the year 2005 and 2006, I was an active member of The Boys' Brigade.
And because I was not satisfied that I did not participate in Singapore Youth Festival Central Judging. In 2006, I decided to join the Philharmonic Chamber Choir after much persuasion from Rui De.
Hence, 3 out of 5 weekdays after school was spending time on CCA. I managed to juggle my time between academic and aesthetics. But things did not end as it seemed. I was told that our choir was under the minimum critera to even participate in the SYF 2007.

Subsequently, I commenced my search for another CCA. To my surprise, in July 2006, my school Guzheng Ensemble was hunting for males to participate in SYF 2007 for the percussion section. I was in hysterics. Well, another suprise was that I am the only male participant in the whole ensemble. In addition, I did not had any background in playing percussion. Thus, the beginning was quite difficult to manage. Furthermore, with the guidance of ensemble leader, Si Min, as well as other seniors making me felt a sense of belonging. Eventually, I stayed in Guzheng and picked up the techniques quickly.

Soon, my studies was affected by active involvement in CCA. I would tend to fell asleep frequently and became short tempered. I was so engrossed in CCA, I did not even studied for my Final term examination in Secondary 2. Hence, I merely just passed all my subjects and was then streamed into tail-end class in Sec 3. I was not emotional down at all as my attention was on CCA.

When 2007 arrived, Tanglin announced their next major musical production, A Chorus line, a Broadway Musical which was famous even till now. I branched out my interest by attending the audition. I was chosen because I was in choir to be in the main cast. Actually, there are over 16 main characters in the musical. But I had quite a major role. I had a solo monologue for approximately 7 minutes. It is not the end, in my role, he is a homosexual and had a extremely complicated past. Now I think you understand what is really tough about it... ... My main CCA, The Boys' Brigade, my attendance was badly affected as the cast has to start practices from February.

The experience in A Chorus line was immensely horrendous. In term 3, preparation for the preview show in November was 5 days per week, excluding Sunday. Sometimes, I was dreaded to even attend The Boys' Brigade. We had learnt dance moves such as classical ballet, jazz, retro and dance moves in the 1960s. Another aspect was vocals, almost each had a solo song, mine was a short one. Finally, we had to act as grown-up which were at least 10 years older than what we was. However, the characters in he story reminisce back to their distinct and common adolescent experience. To sum up, it was a memorable experience.

Turning back, SYF 2007 was in April at Singapore Conference Hall. The exact date was 24th April at around 11am. I could recall it because we clinched the Gold award. But nothing is fairytale, we went through a dispute before we became strong as a team. It was in March, 26th March on a Monday, if I am not wrong. We had regular practice which was not interesting as we had to practice only 2 pieces for SYF. But that afternoon, I accidentally accused Jia Qi of being jealous towards Qiu Han as Qiu Han was more talented musically than Jia Qi. We started arguing over my way of jesting her. The whole afternoon ended up with disharmony and in he midst of disband.

I was in jittery. I reprimanded myself for being naive and insensitive without much thought of the consequences of my deed. The next few days, some seniors sobbed over the issue. Everyone was pessimistic about it. However, her temper ceased and through her identical twin sister, I was given the opportunity to apologies to her. While everyone was around in the AVA room, we decided to be determined as a group to achieve Gold award for Tanglin Guzheng ensemble.
And we did!

After reading through, I am affirmed that you had realized how dramatic my Sec 3 lifestyle was that year. Moreover, in class, I had informally acquired the title 'late king'. Every week, without fail, would attain 3 slips of 'pink' forms. The worst of all was reaching school after recess period.
My academic results plunged to six 'F9' out of nine subjects without any pass beyond merit. Consequently, I was selected to retake Final term examinations for 4 subjects including English Language. But I was determined to retain in Sec 3 Express stream. Furthermore, I decided to retain in Sec 3 is due to the fact that I could not manage all the topics learnt in Sec 3 in such a short period of time. I never condemn myself for making this choice.

Instead, I was immensely delighted to be posted to 3E4 2008. Well, I never knew I could enjoy so much fun with them until I was included into their clicks. They just gave me the most wonderful experience as a class in my sec school journey. First sec school class outing was with them, overnight in town as a class and playing mahjong as a class. Sweet memories that were worthwhile time spent. But things did change as conflicts within clicks escalated. I shall not further elaborate or illustrate.

Alright, to much digression from me, back to main topic.

Well, I was committed to my class till I realized that I neglected BB. This was another year that contributed to my C5 grade. I would be reluctant to attend parades and events. I would always think of an excuse to escape or deliberately overslept. The minimum requirement for A1 is 25 and full marks is 62 marks. However, I only have 15 marks. 5 marks was from Community Involvement Programme(categorized as Service in L.E.A.P.S. system), 3 marks was from Character Development Programme (categorized as Enrichment under L.E.A.P.S.) and I can't recall were the 7 marks was from.

My achievements and participation in BB was annulled as my total attendance percentage was below minimum requirement of 75%. And the comments was my actual attendance was less then 50%. It was atrocious! I couldn't believe the images transmitter by my photoreceptors was ruthless and merciless. I had so much involvements and the attendance instantly took my breathe. My arterioles constricted and my temper escalated into hatred. Even though I knew about the results a month ago, I was still unsatisfied.

In conclusion, my remarks would be, CCA is a waste of time. Too realistic, immensely merciless.

2009-08-23T03:47:00.000-07:00

Almost every moment I stepped on the path which I had once been.
The sense of downcast fell upon me, like a storm.
Full of hatred, full of emotions.
When can I forget and let it go?

Times of memory, times of regret.
I can't understand which was the regret which was willingness.
What for I care so much about the truth within.
When everything does not benefit me anymore.

I am beginning to be pessimistic and more introvert.
Life is just reality, Lifestyle are just dreams.
When will I learn, when will I acknowledge the truth.
Which I couldn't bear to even listen.

Extricate me from this desire to fade away.

2009-08-22T11:25:00.000-07:00

What am I thinking, What am I doing?
How do I solve this complicated algebra equations in my mind.
I do not have the foundation and basic knowledge to solve them.

I just want to avoid them but they will never disappear.
It was like Deja-vu, from a normal Secondary 3 to retained secondary 3 student.
Everything will still return and need to be solved.
I am stress, confused and exhausted.
But who was really there for me.
But who was honest enough to be truthful.
I doubt so because life is filled with unsolvable quadratic equations.

2009-08-22T09:40:00.000-07:00

This week was an intense week for Sec.4 Exp students.
'O' level EL Oral Exam.
I am stressed up, why is EL difficult.

Recently, life was not smooth going for me.
I don't feel like writing more about it.
Life is an irony, irony is the unexpected.
Life is messy, I can't accept it yet.

Next Mon afternoon is my EL oral exam.
Yet I am still using the computer.
So stupid... ...
I love computer but life don't love me.
Why is education such a competitive sport.
We had to sweat till we bleed mentally and that is how torturing life is... ...

That's why humans becomes more and more selfish because the modern lifestyle is too
horrendous and helping others is not an ideal choice when you are already landed in a problem.

2009-08-22T00:25:00.000-07:00

Everything was planned.
You ran the programme with the help of friends.
I was the target, you was the sharpshooter.
Everything went as planned.
You won, I must highlight, you won.

I was speechless, emotionless and helpless.
You laughed, cheered and celebrated.
I became the dead man and left to rot.

Strucked

2009-08-20T09:21:00.000-07:00

WHO ARE YOU?

I can't believe what I had realised through my thoughts, that everything were lies.
How truthful can you be when everything was just a cover up.
Stop cursing me from your spells because I am tired already.
I was glad I pulled myself out of the situation I never deserved.
I shouldn't had been given such an ending.
You messed up my life, confused my thoughts.
Who are you?

Your mouth was the poison, my mind was corroded.
The memories were dreams, the end was reality.
Problems escalated, energy depletes.
Sacrificed made, but back with no appeciation.
Numbed by the treatment, blind by the impression.
Over trusted, over cheated.
Who are you?

I did not have any pillar of strength around me.
But you choose to drag me down.
Selfish, Self-centered and Self.
Never changing character, death of growth.
Inner conflict arised, who was there for me?
Not till I seek for refuge and there it was for me.
I took the courage to bid farewell, to what is never meant to be mine.
Who are you?

My conlusions made me a fool.
Choosing the pathway of rough terrain created by you.
How nice can you be, if everything was just to benefit you?
Why were you the actor and director, controlling everything.
Life is a irony, irony is the unexpected.
My remaining strength was too weak to keep me going on.
Who are you?

Time wasted, Time ran.
Energy invested, thoughts infested.
Acceptance, Rejection.
Close one eye, Open new lies.
I need a clear cut circuit between us.
Who are you?

I never knew who you really was until I ruminate through my thoughts.
I was too exhausted to even carry on.
As reality came closer, the cover was breaking.
I saw through you., but I am still befuddled.
I did not deserved to be given that.
I did not understand, I never knew.
Till the day I found my pillar of strength.
I realised I could had been my own pillar of knowledge.
Who are you?

Your eyes were opaque, but my heart was plastic.
Till I realised the truth.
Yours eyes became plastic and my heart was a 1mm think glass.
I thought I would break down, but the verge of anger took raced and won.
My trail of thought then became not negligible.
There was no halt to it, it never ends.
I discover new clues, I became the detective.
I realised the truth and research, I became the scientist.
I became everything that I wasn't.
But... ...
Who are you?

It was a road with a no detour sign, but there was no split road.
I shook my hand off and moved on.
I became a changed man, a tired man.
No one else was really there for me except my pillar of strength.
The road through was cruel and cold.
But it was not avoidable.
2am is the trend, no appeatie is the habit.
Who are you?

2009-08-08T23:22:00.000-07:00

2009-08-07T06:49:00.000-07:00

CCA CCA... ... Thinking about it gives me total headache.

This afternoon had treat from Miss Chai.
Thanks a lot.
She treated this year graduating Sec 4s.
Then went to Jurong Point with Shermond,Rayney and Elton.
Found that JP is just a boring place.
Went home and here I am using the computer... ...

Today's NDP celebration was short and sweet.
Simple and not really enjoyable as expected.

Anyway, the rest is going to be random.

Life is full of unexpected and the word would be irony.

Next, Abigail asked me whether I still miss Guzheng.
Not really, I need to focus on my academic studies rather than
spending time missing Guzheng.
What I had wanted to achieved was achieved.
To participate in SYF.

Bored... ...
Don't feel like blogging anymore.
ByeBye

Sadness drowning me everyday

Appreciate

2009-08-06T03:48:00.000-07:00

I realised that appreciation for every the simple help
that people initiated is very important.

Appreciate

However my favourite of the week is... ...

Contradict

Singapore Youth Festival Central Judging 2009

2009-08-03T06:50:00.000-07:00

I just can't let go of Guzheng Ensemble.
I am still loving SYF central judging!
Well, I have my Guzheng Ensemble audio clip in my handphone.
Almost every morning, I would play it while walking to school.

Everytime, while listening, I would ask myself.
What made us cliched Gold with Honours at SYF Central Judging 2009?
It is still a total question mark in my thoughts.

Missed the times since I joined Guzheng, the seniors, members and juniors.
Especially the instructoress and the music pieces we had played for the past few years.
I had enjoyed it, really.

'O' levels preparation

2009-07-30T07:15:00.000-07:00

I am exhausted. I require additional revision and preparation for the upcoming Cambridge General Certificate of Secondary Education 'Ordinary' level examinations.

Everyday would be the same routine and my sleeping pattern seems ironic?
Please pardon me for the way I use English.
Usually, people who sleeps for 8 hours or more would be energetic after
waking up. Well, for me, 5 hours is just the best. Nothing more and less.
If not I would doze off in classes such as Chemistry, Physics and English.
Even my classmates realised that!

Hahas.

That's all!

Thought of the Moment

2009-05-10T08:46:00.000-07:00

Serious writing,

Reading someone's blog isn't the way to understand one's mind... ...

2009-05-08T02:17:00.001-07:00

My Birthday coming soon!

2009-05-04T07:32:00.000-07:00

2009-05-04T07:00:00.000-07:00

Untitled... ...

Cute bunny :)

Directly pronounce this in English, it would be read as 'Bastard'.
Hahas!

It looks appealing to my appeatie but it taste like liquid medicine... ...

Jump for Beijing Olympics!

2009-04-30T07:57:00.000-07:00

My past is the history,

past never repeats itself not even it
allows any human to try it again.

history was just an experience.

history is a past.

past is a history.

Confused thoughts of my little mind... ...

Blog Links

2009-04-23T23:29:00.000-07:00

Tanglin Boys' Brigade
http://www.bb26th.blogspot.com/

James Leong (TSS)
http://www.the-final-scene.blogspot.com/

Ling Jie (Others)
http://www.rider-on-the-sky.blogspot.com/

Annabel
http://www.followthatway.blogspot.com/

Allicia
http://spelllove-allicia09.blogspot.com/

Sock Yi
http://its-sockyi.blogspot.com/

Beatrice
http://enigmati-c.blogspot.com/

Fiona
http://www.un-wantedmemories.blogspot.com/

Hui Min
http://www.huuiimiin.blogspot.com/

Shafeeq
http://www.drum-freak.blogspot.com/

Bernard
http://www.bernard-mylife.blogspot.com/

Jian Yang
http://www.nguijianyang.blogspot.com/

Douglas
http://the-black-of-nitez.blogspot.com/

Raynee
http://rayn-ee.blogspot.com/

Sarah
http://www.thefaketragedy.blogspot.com/

Roxanne
http://www.preciousmemories-.blogspot.com/

Ding Li
http://dingli-nihilus.livejournal.com/

Kenn
http://www.rayernz.blogspot.com/

Bi Xuan
http://heroknight.blogspot.com/

Tanglin Guzheng
http://tssguzheng.blogspot.com/

Thoughts and Reflection (17/4/'09)

2009-04-17T01:03:00.000-07:00

My Life is a mistake... ...

I don't have a father

What would I be after 'O' levels

2009-04-16T07:25:00.001-07:00

I would have no friends to go out with?

No one would keep in contact with me?

I would be staying at home?

I would be in the streets by myself?

I would be window shopping myself?

I will be laughing at funny experience by myself?

Everyone would forget about me... ...

Guzheng

2009-04-16T07:19:00.000-07:00

"What is past without history. What would history be without establishment?"

"Let Bygones, Be Bygones... ..."

"Time to say goodbye"

"Do not compare"

"This is reality"

"Face them"

"Be strong"

"Postive"

"GOLD"

"SYF"

Again... ...Sustain... ...Achieve... ...

Make history.

Express the Music in You :)

Classmates

2009-04-16T07:05:00.000-07:00

I think I am one of the members in my class that is
classified as

"Outcasted"... ...

I am feeling far away from my classmates as time
contiunes to drive itself on the new road.

Usually, I would be sitting alone at the back of the
class. I rarely have any classmates who are
willing to sit beside me or ask me to sit beside them.
I became who I am in the past again.

My life road is a circle.

I made the same mistakes over and over again.

My life is a circle.

I focused on success rather than feelings of human being.
I shout and shout when I don't even care whoever shouts at me.

My life is a circle.

What comes around goes around. If you only had paid attention.

I need help psychologically.

It is not that I am mentally ill. It is just that I am feeling
emotionally low for what I had down.

I need help... ...

To learn to be truely independent. And that I don't have to
worry about others bad mouthing me, curse and swear at me or
gossip about me.

If only I was an average man.
My friends tend to call me 'gay'... ...
And I don't know what to do to be not 'gay' in their eyes.

My actions were mistakes.

I killed my reputation at the moment I did not think twice
before I did what I had thought.

I think being lonely and independent is the only solution.

Cause' I don't have the ability to tell neutral party jokes.
I only have negative jokes towards people.

My actions were mistakes.

I chosed comfort over reality.
I slept late at home, been late umpteem times for school and slept in class.

I need support.
This is so irony... ...

I need support.
I feel too lonely... ...

I need support.
I want freedom... ...

I need support.
To be a better man... ...

I = me... ...
I - You = me... ...
Supports + I = i

Naggy,

this is totally... ...

Thoughts & Reflection (16/4/09)

2009-04-16T06:44:00.000-07:00

Let me not be naggy.

I just want to say "加油!，have the Fighting spirit!"

Thoughts and Reflection (15/4/'09)

2009-04-15T09:45:00.000-07:00

Unreasonable people cursed and scolded me.

'Dao' people start to smile and talk to me.

A day of balance between positive and negative events that happened today.

How nice... ...

But it was really wonderfully to see some 'dao' people smile.
I mean they looked nice with their friendly smile instead
of glum look, all the time.

Those unreasonable people still loves to curse
and swear words to my name.

Next, do you know how much time I had spent on Guzheng?
While, other than sleeping time, I will be thinking about how
to improve and help my juniors.

While Dance Ensemble Seniors gave me another view of
how Seniors should work together and agree with each other
of what we are doing.

And not having different thoughts and allow the rest to
get controlled over Seniors thoughts... ...
(Whatever... ... It is going to be over anyway... ...)

I had been day dreaming in classes since last week.
I was day dreaming about Guzheng SYF... ...
Thinking of why this person did this, that person do that.
And what will happen on actual day.
What did I do wrong until some juniors have problem
to communicate with me.
What was always wrong with me.
Why do I always fail to be leading people.
Why did I always took the wrong steps to succeed... ...
I can't face reality... ...
I don't have a 'mask' like them... ...

I had watched Contemporary Dance SYF Dance.
It was a good idea to have just 16 main dancers as
they started the choreography only since February.

And the girls in the dance really impressed me.
They are very responsible and have very good teamwork.
They kept the timing as correct as possible.
I was very impressed.
It was all the while the guys that had problems with counting the time.
I saw how Mr Eugene got angry over the guys throughout the rehearsal.
And I saw how serious the non-main team were.

The dance was filled with power but just the problem with
team coordination. Totally in competition mood.
Rock on to Dance Ensemble and Contemporary Dance!
I am really proud of the effort and energy of the girls.
And the talents the guys possesses.

Thoughts & Reflection

2009-04-11T06:46:00.000-07:00

Today was a great day :)
(11/4/'09)

I was spending my whole day in school with Guzheng Ensemble.
It was a totally great experience :)
I sincerely appreciate people who changed for the better.
I am also proud of those who took initative to change things for the better.

Guzheng Gals, I am proud of each and everyone of you.
Especially today.

1 full week more to train for SYF.
I am going to miss the times I spent with each and everyone of you.
We should work towards what we deserve.

Gold award in Singapore Youth Festival 2009

Thank You.

Thoughts and Reflection

2009-03-05T08:49:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, I arrived school at 11:00am.
I had a bad diahorrea then.

I rested and decided to go to school instead of
wasting money to consult a doctor.
However, when I alighted from the bus.
It rained! How nice... ...

My monthly allowance is kind of 'tight' this year.
I always skip at least one meal each day.
Most of the time even two meals.
Well, it had became a habit since the beginning of this year.

Mood swings and feeling emotionally down.
Wondering who can understand me and
'pull' myself up again and don't 'stick my
nose into other people's problem.

Anyway, I had sent an sms to apologise to Abigail.
She had yet to reply at all.
But was I supposed to even apologise to Abigail in the first place?
I am in doubt... ...

Claiming that you are matured, think twice.
Maturity is one of the highest level in human character.
It has a lot of quality, so please think twice before anyone claimed
to be mature.

I am kind of random, similar to my school Principal, Mrs Karen Oei.
Every morning, she would not fail to preach her thoughts of the day.
And she likes to be random at most of the time.
She never focus on a main topic.
Well, I tried to listen to her almost every morning, but whenever her
main topic and her speech did not connect. I gave up... ...

Tonight, my class 4E4, is going to have a end-of-term class outing.
It is going to be around the central of Sinagpore. I don't really know the
programme and venues. But I would want to thank Shafeeq who had
took the initative to orgainse this event as well as his committee.

Smokers, please Take Good Care of your health.
For everyone, health is your wealth.
Please consider before you take another cigarette... ...

I am still worried whether my relatives will pull me out of SYF.
I had expressed my concern and thoughts to the teacher-in-charge
of Guzheng. She also told me not to 'stick my nose' into other people's
business because other don't respect you. I do agree with her and
I am taking action to prevent myself to 'stick my nose' inoth others
business.

Thank You for visiting my blog,
I appreciate to those who had left a tag.
And I hope you would be the next :)

6th March 2009, 1:05am.
Jerry Tan.

Thoughts and Reflection

2009-03-04T04:18:00.000-08:00

My Common Test results were not up to expectation... ...

I had placed my focus on the wrong thing.
(I had always been doing the wrong things at the wrong time... ...)

I had chosen a wrong path, the rough one.
(I should had just concentrate on my studies... ...)
How can I manage to overcome it and continue with my
normal path... ...

Singapore Youth Festival seemed more trouble than fun.
Self created troubles to be more specific... ...
Again, incidents and incidents had proved to me that
I cannot lead a group of youth to strive for success.
The methods I had use had resulted in friends into foes.

Sometimes or most of the time, we had to wear 'mask'
over our face to be friendly with each other. And to cover
up our feelings towards them.

I am kind of struck with my results... ...
If my relatives are going to know about my results.
I will be forced to stay out of SYF.

But second thoughts crossed my mind.
If I am out of SYF, I can concentrate on my studies.
But I will have to give up one of my goal in life.
Which is to achieve success with Guzheng Ensemble.
Indirectly, the members would be relieved that Jerry would not
take video of them, bootlick teachers, cause trouble, sent annoying
smses, interfere with their life and threaten them.

人们总是会犯错，导致自己被更多人恨。

可是旁人终是要多管闲事，多说几句闲话。

这样的举动使得我感到非常不满。

加油吧！

只要全力以赴和同心协力

就可以成功！

我不管你能不能拿金牌。

因为我已经累了。

做错的事再也改不了。

我也不要在我人生的一个

重要点继续犯下同样的错。

因为岁月不留人，时光如箭。

再也没有多一个机会翻身。

我的生活里的朋友已经很少了。

我不能再多出几个敌人。

不然我会累倒。

我宁愿继续我孤独的路程。

Music is my Passion, but life push me back into reality... ...
Friendship is not the thing for me... ...
Causal friends are good enough because I don't want to
hurt more people who are close to me.

I suppose it is time to return to what I was, emotional and down... ...
It's always difficult to please people, especially friends... ...

4th March 2009, 8:57pm.
Thank You.

Jerry

2009-02-15T06:59:00.000-08:00

Oh shit!

I am kind of Guzheng crazy now a days!

I want them to strive for Gold and achieve it!

Must! Must!! Must!!!

DO not let my and you effot go to waste!

2009-02-02T06:28:00.001-08:00

Tomorrow is the official first

Pure Biology Science Practical Assessment

'O' level examination!!!

I am kind of anxious, worried and excited about it!
Tomorrow would be on Osmosis on plant cells.
We are going to use potato strips and concentrated
salt solution.

I am currently doing my English Situational writing
which I was supposed to hand up few weeks ago.
Hehes.

Hope that tomorrow would be a good day ahead.
Alrights, I have nothing much to write now.

Take Care my readers!

Chinese New Year

2009-01-24T09:07:00.001-08:00

CNY 2009 is coming soon!

The Chinese are going to celebrate their
chinese calender new year.
It's kind of weird that the World does not
have a real one and common New Year.
Instead, we have a few new year for different
religion, races and tribes. Laugh Out Loud!

Anyway, I had brought a lot of new clothes this year
because I had received my Edusave Merit Bursary last
December! It was very satisfying to had brought so many
brand new clothes for this year!

I am going to wear them soon!
Cool yeah!

20-01-09

2009-01-20T03:16:00.000-08:00

Woke up at 6:20am today.
Forgot to pack my bag the night before.
Ended up I didn't had time to brush my teeth.

Had E Math FOCUS lesson today, aka remindial.
3pm to 5:30pm.

Today was just studies for the whole morning and afternoon.
During English lesson, an ex-Tanglinian also current trainee teacher
in Tanglin, Mr Alvin Chan. Gave a simple speech about post secondary
education and his experience. His story was amazing!

Hope to be like him in future!

Thats all!

January

2009-01-17T01:20:00.000-08:00

Mr Sia Chee Hoong is my Form teacher!
Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

I went for Boys' Brigade yesterday.
I wore my BB Full Uniform yesterday.
It had been almost a year since I last wore my Full Uniform!
After opening parade, I went to AVA room for Guzheng.
They need some extra training for Chinese New Year.

Then I went back for BB because Guzheng ended at 3pm.
They were having Environmentalist Lesson.
It was boring because everything was about listening to speech... ...
I feel distant from the BB boys after my batch of BB members graduated.
I do miss them a lot!

And Miss Chai passed her BB main teacher-in-charge to Mr Tie for 2009 onwards.
Mrs Grace Yap is officially our new TIC for BB.
All the best for Adventure Quest teams in April!
You must attain a Gold Honour again this year!

I am currently preparing for 'O' levels this year.
Starting the pace bit by bit.
I am aiming to get L1R4 : <15

English Language : B4 (Minimum C6)

Combine Humanities : B3 (Minimum B4)
(Social Studies/ Literature)

E Math: A2 (Minimum B3)

Chinese Language : A1 (Minimum A2)

Biology : A1 (Minimum A2)

Combined Science : A2 (Minimum B3)
(Physics/ Chemistry)

Design and Technology : B3 (Minimum B4)

2008-12-08T18:20:00.000-08:00

I had not been sleeping well for 2 weeks.

2 case scenarios,

1st is that I can sleep but fall asleep after after 3am

2nd is I totally can't sleep for the whole morning!

And now I am having slight headache... ...

In the midst of Year End holiday

2008-12-02T10:38:00.000-08:00

My right eye is sensitive now.
It is feeling itchy and I am feeling uncomfortable!

This few days I was tidying my house bit by bit.
I was arranging and throwing away thrash.

I am going of 17 years old next year and starting
as a Secondary 4 Express student.

I am getting ready to go for my overseas trip
in 2 weeks time!

Do pray for my safety alrights!

Thank You in advance

2008-11-27T13:37:00.000-08:00

Opps!

Sorry for not being able to post for days.
Thousand apologises!

On Wednesday afternoon, I went out with my Mum and
Nephew to Orchard Road. My Mum's friend family drove
us there with their family. We went to Ngee Ann City and
Wisma Atrium to shop. And when we reached Ngee Ann City.
We spent most of out time at shops like Louis Vutton and
Gucci. I can tell you it is so crazy! LOLs! But my family can
only enjoy the beauty of the bags and shoes but can't afford
them at all. Just saw how desperate my Mum wants them too.

Most of the time my Mum and me are just taking care of my
Nephew and entertaining him while we are shopping.

My Nephew is staying at my place!

2008-11-24T10:09:00.001-08:00

On 24th to 26th November, my 5 month old
nephew is staying over at my place.

My Mum is going to take care of him on this
3 days because the nanny is going overseas
for this three days. My Mum specially took
3 full days leave just to take care of my nephew.

After the first day, I realised babies are not
easy to take care. They have a lot of needs
and the problem is not that we can't meet their
needs. The problem is what is their needs at
certain times. The barrier between us and babies
is communication.

My Mum said that babies would listen to what you
speak to their ears even if they don't understand.
Pretty hilarious right!
But my nephew would just give in return an
innocent smile as if he is enjoying and understanding
what the person is speaking to him.

Well, I did not sleep well that morning not because of
my nephew. And to be exact I did not sleep at all that
morning. Just that I am not sleepy and unable to
sleep. I decided to arrange my room because there
are a lot of boxes which belongs to my sister's friend.
She lend my room space to her friend who is going
to buy a new apartment.

Almost half of my room are filled with boxes, damn!
Hope that she would take them back as soon as possible!
It irritates me to see them. And it took me quite some
time and effort to arrange them to make me feel
comfortable in my room.

Anyways, I will be moving to Bukit Panjang housing estate
in years time. Around 3 years because my Mum wants to
stay near my elder sister who is married. And just nice
that there will be new apartment buildings which are
going to be built in 3 years time. I will miss Bukit Batok
badly. I just love Bukit Batok because of its convience and
I am very glad to be born in this estate!

Sadly, I am still going to move over and it is definate.
Well, I will be in army by the time they shift destination.
Can I don't move house?

Holiday Thoughts and Words

2008-11-23T11:25:00.000-08:00

Well, when I am in school I would always hoped that
holidays would arrive soon.
But when holidays is on, I told myself holidays are boring!

This is how my mind works and I am sure that I
am not the only one!

Most of the time of each and everyday I would spent most
of my time in my dream land. And even 'dark land'.

I would sleep in the middle of the night and wake up
during the early afternoon. Just thinking what to do
for the rest of the day.

Sometimes I would worry about my 'O' levels
next year. At time I would think about having
a brand new piano at home. (Cause my piano is old,
second hand and OUT OF TUNE!)

My thoughts did not stop coming and coming.
Necessary and unnecessary thoughts to be exact.

I am still lazy to work on my holiday assignments.
Most of the time I would think about sleeping and
staring blank during the day.

Well, you should think about planning for your future.

For me, I am going to give up my Design and Technology
subject during 'O' level examination. Cause I find it difficult
to manage and learn to an extend I want to give up!
The theory seemed too much for me and I did tried to
learn the skills and theory but they are not my forte.

I want to confess that I am lazy. That's the truth.
It is really not that I can't get a C6 grade for Design and
Technology. Just that I am not eager to even try things out.
See the picture?

Anyway, I just received 2 letters.
One of them is about National Service. (Cause I had reached
16 and a half years old)
Another one is about Bursary award. (It is for top 25% in level
position who are lower income)
I shall not go into further elaboration.

Let the days pass and enjoy myself while I can
before time is gone every second!

My Ex-3E4 Sentosa Outing 2008

2008-11-20T10:27:00.000-08:00

I woke up late!
It is 20th November that day.
I was supposed to be at Vivo City by 10am.
But I woke up at 9:30am.

Damn!

I was still not doing what I should be doing and
thinking blank in my mind and sitting on my bed.
And then I started washing up and changing to
a proper attire.Well, I was relieved when Faradilla
told me that she was also still at home too. Hahas.
I reached Vivo City at 10:30am and the rest of the
classmates were there.I asked them about their 'O'
level examination.And waited for the rest.We walked
to Siloso Beach from Imbiah Station.We spent time
playing beach volleyball.I left at 11:45am as I had to
leave for Singapore Conference Hall for some Singapore
Youth Festival Briefing. But before I start, I have to
comment that this sucks!

Why?

I wasted my trip down there because of Mrs Chng's mistake?
The booking of SCH for rehearsal was only for band and chinese
orchestra. C'mon, Guzheng is under Instrumental Ensemble NOT
Chinese Orchestra. You had made me wasted my time to accompany
Co teacher-in-charge for Guzheng and found out it was a mistake
made by Mrs Chng?I was pissed, so was the Co teacher-in-charge... ...
I went back to Sentosa and reached back at 2:30pm.I helped Cherie
to take some photos for her.

Anyways, the rest of the afternoon was fun.
I buried Paulette, Faradilla, Sukini and Dallas feet
with sand. I also went to help burying Farhan's body
under the sand. Swim and dip in the water for an hour
with them. Finally went to bathe at 7pm.

A big group of us went Sakae Sushi at Habourfont.
We had dinner together and left at 9:30pm.
It was great and introducing some Japanese food to
Yazid was even more interesting... ... Hahas

I went to take MRT towards Boon Lay with Yazid.
I reached home at 11pm.Overall, I did enjoy this time with them.
And Nicholas Ian's belt is still with me! (Opps!)
I forgot to return to him before I left home.
Can someone ask him if he needs it urgent?
If not I will return him on 4E4 class chalet.

Lastly, I have to apologise to 3E4 that I can't attend
class chalet this year : (
I am going overseas on the 16th - 20th December.
I will miss you guys and gals!
Do enjoy yourself alright : )
See ya soon!

A New Beginning Commence

2008-11-19T06:33:00.000-08:00

Greetings to you who is here to read the first post of this blog.

Wishing you Happy Holidays if you are a student :)

Wish everyone the best at the end of this year.
Soon the Year 2009 is about to come by.

Lets all be excited about it and hopfully that the economy
would change for the better.

Well, as everyone should know that
Time flies and everyone is getting older and changing.
The challenges we had to faced in this year is about to round up.
And we are going to go through a totally stranger year ahead.
A year of mysteries which are filled with emotions.

Tomorrow, which is 20th November
I am going to Sentosa with my previous 3E4.
Thanks for Faradilla who had informed me about that event.
Quite rare and a big suprise to be invited to a EX-class party.
Anyways, I need to leave early tomorrow from that party.
Around 12:45pm?

At 2pm, I have to attend a Singapore Youth Festival 2009 briefing
with Madam Sun. It is in Singapore Conference Hall which is near
Tanjong Pagar MRT station.

After that I am meeting my friend for dinner and that's all for the day.

Yesterday, I had just finished the whole book of
Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows.
Great book indeed.
This story is full of excitement and tension.
Well, final book of Harry Potter series.
And the first book of the series I had completed.